I've heard that a person is more likely to achieve their goals if they write them down.
So. Here goes nothing.
I want to be creative. I want people to know what I create, and see what I create, and hopefully enjoy what I create. Small goal, right?
Throughout my life, I've had a tenancy to shield the world from my accomplishments. I was in band because being part of a group felt safe, and I never did any solos. I played soccer because it was a team sport. I also was an equestrian, but only participated in barn shows. In high school, I liked to write, but I never submitted anything to competitions or publication. I also have a nice voice, but I've never had the guts to show it off.
Art feels different. I've always had my art on display. Every art project I made, my parents would put up in the house. People would come over for dinner, see an art piece, and ask me questions about it. I would always love to tell them my thoughts behind each piece. Was I any good? Not really, but my art really embodied who I was. And I thought that was pretty neat.
My last semester in college, I took a sketchbook class. Before that, my last art class about nine years ago. You could say I was a bit behind. This piece, 'Cheeseburger', was one of my early sketches of the class. The teacher said to sketch what inspired you....and I was really hungry.
As the class progressed, I became more comfortable sketching. By more comfortable, read: Emma never felt actually comfortable, but didn't stare into the great abyss anymore in fear of putting pencil to paper. It was always a mental stretch figuring out what to do, and how to achieve it. The best part about that class was that I was forced to do it for a grade. It kept me going. Plus, I really needed a good grade. Since the class, I haven't sketched nearly as much as I would like. It still kind of scares me. But I know what the end results could look like if just a little effort was put into a piece. This is one of my favorite creations from that art class. It's the piece that keeps me encouraged that one day I can be better and become someone who actively creates.
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